nega star

yesterday was actually a great day. Spent it productively and had a blast shopping and eating and just being plain crazy with my sister who i love too much…

but being a nega star that i am… these past few days have been a struggle.

my landlady, being the loving but sometime nosy person that she is… “ordered” me to go to church since it was my birthday tow days ago…

i bought the roses given by my sweet friend and offered it to Mama Mary… during the mass… i DID NOTHING but CRY…

until now im still not in the mood… outside looking good but inside i feel so broken and messed up that i can’t be fixed anymore…

 

i just continue to pray….

it’s been a long time…

i should start writing again…

weeeenerrrr!!!

just published my first entry in the Pinoy Scholar Blog. Hope I get good reviews… ahihihi!!!

good news

of all the days, drew (a former colleague of mine) dropped by (read: left a YM message for me). He is asking me to possibly write an article for a blog site he is currently managing (http://pinoyscholars.wordpress.com/). I was hesitant at first since I do not think my unending rants about my life would be any use to what his site is all about. but then he said “maganda ka magsulat e, funny.” hahaha!!!  yun yun e! funny!

thanks drew… you made my day. im so fired up! i asked him what should i write. he said your personal experiences, social, academic, japanese culture.. etc. so i told him im willing to share my blog about my toilet encounter here in japan. we both got ecstatic. so i told him i would submit an intro article about me… and the next entry would be the toilet blog. hehehe!!!

yahoo!

p.s. wish i can handle this new responsibility since i am also doing my thesis this term. ganbaremashou!!!

im back…

its been a long time indeed… i miss writing… i miss me…

tired

gusto ko lang sabihin na masama ang loob ko sa sarili ko…

sobra… kasi ang hirap talaga mag-aral ng puro math. nakakapagod.

aral ka na ng aral, hanggang sa mag-give up na yung utak mo sa kaka-aral. yun bang tipong wala ng pumapasok sa utak mo. at everytime you try to read and study, nasakit na yung ulo mo!!!

i don’t know kung sa mga kaklase ko e meron na ganun din ang nararamdaman. meron iba na sadyang magaling talaga, tipong exam week na e naglalaro lang ng billiards at pingpong. samantalang ako, halos di na nalabas ng kwarto… wala pa rin masagot…

madalas tuloy nagdududa ako sa kakayahan ko. feeling ko, wtf am i doing here!!!!

siguro napapagod na lang ako ng sobra… bukod pa yung intense pressure to do not just good but your best… it’s a hidden fact that you don’t just study for yourself but your grades also reflect your country and your institution. poootah!!!

fuck… im sooo dead… i feel like i want to die…

nakakaloka pa pag sinasabi ng mga tao na ang sipag ko at ang talino… poootah!!! nakakadagdag pa yun sa pressure, kasi alam ko sa sarili ko kaya ako nag aaral ng mabuti kasi nga I’m not as GOOD as them.

isang term pa lang ako, feeling ko malapit na ako sa sukdulan. na iinggit ako sa mga ka-batch ko na nakukuha pang pumasyal at mag enjoy samantalang ako e, gumagapang na sa hirap…

my 2008 Christmas WISH

Calling my secret SANTAs…

ahem…

here are my top 5 Christmas Wish List for 2008:
1) Twilight Saga (yes, I’m curious about this one… they say its good. So I want to read it to know if its really “good…)

Twilight Saga

2) a new perfume… J.Lo’s GLOW or Burberry’s Sheer… (sorry not updated on the latest scents now since I don’t go perfume shopping anymore…) NOTE TO SELF: in TOKYO, go and scent shop…!!!!

3) a massage…

I badly need one… or two… ^_^…

kahit sa pag-uwi ko sa PINAS… hehehe…

4) a decent and relaxing manicure and pedicure

5) KARE KARE…. ^_^ *yummy!!!!*

hay, i miss CHRISTMAS in PINAS…

there is truly no place like home…

online shopping

i have a new addiction…

yes, online shopping. here in the Japan its as normal as sushi. Its so easy and convenient. You don’t even have to worry about credit cards since they accept COD as a mode of payment. astig noh!

my first try was in amazon.com.jp. I was supposed to buy onlya book holder but I ended up buying a “Lifetime of Secrets” by Frank Warren and a 2009 Murakami Diary and one of his novel. hahaha…

a good coffee book

gift for my PARE...

and a murakami 2009 diary

FOR A TOTAL PRICE OF….. bleeeep…

My second loot… a must have for winter…

cute boots!!!!

right now, im waiting for a black jacket… yup… also bought online….

hehehe!!! retail shopping is addictive!!!!

im dreaming of a white Christmas

My first snow experience in Niigata!!! Yiheee…

fall… then winter?

last few days the temperature here has been getting colder and colder. just two days ago the temperature was below 10C. Nakikita na rin na FALL na nga. The trees around the campus has been slowly turning into various shades of yellow, orange and reds… ganda!

cherry blossom trees

Eto yung isa sa sakura lane ng IUJ. Sakura ay yung kilalang flower ng Japan. Pag spring, walang dahon ang puno kung di puro bulaklak lang… exciting di ba? Meron tennis court kaso di naman ako marunong mag tennis. Tsaka sa dami ng ginagawa, mas gusto ko pa magpahinga kesa sa maglaro…

Nakakatuwa kasi fall na talaga… wala kasing fall sa pinas kaya first time ito…

changing colors...

Umakyat ako sa top floor ng SD3 para makakua ng mas magandang view… ng isa sa mga pinaka aantay ko dito sa NIIGATA…

Single Dormitory 3

kita nyo ba ang nakikita ko?

kita nyo?!?!?!

SNOW!!!!

EXCITED na ako!!!! Sabi ng mga Senpai… maaga daw ngayon ang snow… so malamang 2-3 weeks from now… meron na rin snow sa campus… GOOD LUCK sa akin… hahaha…

e2 pa yung ilang view sa top floor ng building…. ganda ng campus namin. kahit pa sabihing baryong baryo… the place is very conducive for studying… nature tripping at photography… which hopefully will be my next hobby…

rice fields... (pero wala ngayon...)

at isa rin sa magagandang view dito sa IUJ…

aHENG, aHENG, aHENG...

hehehe… syempre kasama ko… para mas masaya kumuha ng pictures. Siya ang kumuha nito… hahaha… parang nasayang yung maganda nyang camera kasi di sya marunong gumamit.

eto pa...

ano bee!!!

pede na rin since ako naman yung “subject”. hehehe…